No pain anymore

probably I don't understand what pain means, because may I forgot that it feel too long time ago, because my heart became hard as steel, so I can't feel the pain anymore, I don't understand what disappointed is, because long time ago a lot of people got me dreams promises and they never were true, a lot of people lied to me. When they promise to me an eternal love, they weren't true nothing were true on those promises, hey dispel every dream I feel everything I believe. so now for every experience than I had now my hear became hard as steel I don't feel the pain I don't care lies, I might never feel what love is ,I might never felt I love with somebody else, maybe I won't be able to understand feeling, because the people has made me like this , cold! hard, without illusion, but in part that is fine, because now I don't feel pain and suffering, because everyone has made me hard , many people has played with me , they lied to me , they took me out from their lives and I don't understand why when I did my best my best I did all possible to be with them in last they disappoint me, maybe they think then I never understood that, but well I have thank to god because he gave me a good memory and I won't never forget any part of memories, but now I don't feel pain I know than always something I coming something bad but now I’m ready to handle with anything is coming to me! Because my heart became as steel.